dearCelisse

I’m not happy anymore. Why? All of a sudden cheery, little Celisse ain’t being her perky self. With everything that’s happening to me, happy isn’t even in my vocabulary anymore. It’s been completely erased. Nothing good has ever happened this month. Everything’s a disaster.

School, Family, Friends and well… I don’t have to say anything else…

I don’t know why everything all banged into my life. CRAP! This is not the life I wanted. Maybe I’ll just have to go back to how I was when I was younger. Maybe then I’ll be happy again. Things weren’t so complicated. I always had my way. Sure there were a few problems but it never made me feel this way.

Everyday and night I find myself crying because I couldn’t take any more of it. Sometimes I just want everyone to let me be. It’s better to be alone sometimes. No one to say anything bad to you or hurt you or tell you you’re not worth anything.

well, I’m still young. I guess I’m not ready for the real world yet. So if people won’t accept me for who I am, then DON’T. You’re better off without me anyway if you’re so good at everything. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. I’ll just show you the real me and if you don’t like it, I’m sorry. Don’t waste your time with me. I’m not meant to be in your lives and meeting me was just a big mistake.

I just want to be happy again… and if I have to get hurt before I get there, then I’m prepared. Happiness does not come cheap. You have to pay big time before you get it…

she I signed-in; he signed-out…

my pet tamagotchi died ’cause I regected his mate. he died out of depression… may he find peace…

Now I have a new one. it’s a boy again. This time I’ll just say "yes" so he won’t die..