dearCelisse

I clarified everything today with the both of them. Denise was with me. It hurt me to see the way he looked at her. It was the same way he looked at me. I couldn’t stand being with just the two of them so I usually would just roam around and play with the dog, or talk to his mom or his brother. I just gave them privacy so they could do whatever they want with each other.

Everything that happened before was all wrong. He admitted it. But looks like he got away with it. (no offense) I can get mad at him, but not for too long. I can get mad, but no matter how much he hurt me like this, it’s such a wonder why i can’t hate him. And after all the pain he’d cost me, I still ended up being ok with him.

When I was about to go home, i felt that things have changed. I gave him a one last big hug. Before, I would just hug him whenever I wanted to, now, I had to ask my friend if I could. He still smelled the same. The same scent that I love, the scent that I keep remembering even though he’s nowhere near me. He used to “shower” himself with that perfume because he knew I loved it. I guess my friend likes it as well because he still wearing the same perfume.

I also found out he didn’t change his phone password. It was still the same, and it still had my picture in there. The others were deleted though. To him: sorry, i was just curious. And don’t worry, it won’t stop me from getting over. I was just glad that you kept it. Really, I appreciated that cause I guess it means you still remember me. At least in that little way, I can stay you still cared as a friend and for the years we shared. Thank you.

So here I am, alone. I can’t say I’m ok now. It still hurts, but seeing them happy.. I just had to walk away. He told me, if I really do still love him, I will just move on and take care of myself. It’s true. I still do love him. So that’s what I’m going to do. I would do anything he asks me to.

Someday, I will get over this. Hopefully, next year will be better.

THANK YOU DENISE! THANK YOU BESTY! Sobrang I love you! Thanks dahil sinamahan mo ako and for the unending comfort.

It’s christmas. The best christmas gift is FORGIVENESS.

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