dang it!
I’m a disappointment again. I tried. Well, maybe not my best. My only fault was that I am IGNORANT.
Because of that ignorance, My schedule is completely ruined.
I’m worried for my future.
this is a bit dramatic but, “Death has never been more tempting.”
Good thing I’m not that sick to have suicidal tendencies. But hurting myself a little for punishment may suffice. Just numerous little pin-pricks would do.
For what? For being stupid. For ruining my future. For disappointing my parents. For NOT being the perfect daughter my parents want.
nothing I do is good enough. Nothing WILL be good enough. Because I am such a FAILURE.
Maybe that’s why EVERYBODY LEAVES. Who would want to be with stupid little me?
February 1st, 2009 at 11:13 pm
hey, don’t be like that. it’ll all fall into place no matter how big that mess is. don’t hurt yourself, it wouldn’t do any good and will only leave scars. Failure? NO you’re not! Have you watched Elizabethtown? if not, watch it! As Claire (Kirsten Dunst) said in the movie,
“…have the courage to fail big and stick around and make them wonder why you’re still standing. That’s true greatness to me…”
and another one,
“You have 5minutes to wallow in the delicious misery. Enjoy it. Embrace it. Discard it and PROCEED.”
Plus, your nanny will always be here even if everybody leaves okay? so cheer up!=)